i think that i had an ok christmas. the only thing that was good about it was that i got a new acoustic guitar = ) and my younger sister got a microphone with a stand, so she can sing and scream into it!!! so rad...
but next to that it was total shit. i dont know if anyone elses parents are divorced... but mine are. and it seems like its a fucking constant battle trying to keep them both satisfied. they split up when i was 4, and im 15 now. and its gotten a little better. but when it comes to them having to share me and my sister, they fucking suck at it. they get pissy if we want to hang out with one parent instead of the other. i guess that would be normal behavior for a parent if you dont get to see your kid all the time... but, its like they only want us there to make the other parent jealous. wtf is that shit? so, when that happens, i just lay low and stay in my room and cry like the pussy that i am... and listen to h.i.m..
yah, thats right. i am a depressed little fucking cunt, and i will insult myself if i want to.
listening to h.i.m. has helped me in a lot of ways though. i think its made me a better person in general. i dont consider myself that depressed anymore. like a couple years ago... it was pretty bad. now, i still get down in a hole, and dont feel like being with anyone. cos depression is something your born with, like a disease, that never goes away. im not on here to talk shit, and complain about life, and all the struggles that come with it. im on here to write about how much h.i.m. has impacted my life in such a positive way... its incredible!!
h.i.m. forever and always...xoxo <3